Shame On Me
(based on Psalm 10:4; Proverbs 3:34b, 6:16-19, 8:13, 11:2, 15:3, 16:5, 16:18-19, 18:12, 22:4, 29:23; Matthew 20:26; Mark 9:35; Luke 9:48, 18:11; Romans 12:3; James 4:6-10 & I Peter 5:5-6)
Written by M. Marshall
©, Joined at the Hip Ministries, 2008
Intro: My self-esteem is straight, it’s good. So don’t misunderstand what I’m about to say. But honestly? Sometimes, man, I really don’t even like myself and it’s usually when I get to feeling like this . . .
V1 – I plead to be freed from the lust and the greed / That arrives when I strive to achieve and succeed / But the deed that was done was indeed just a seed / Now I’m pressed and distressed ‘cause this seed’s growing weeds / And this breed of the weed’s telling me, “Take the lead!” / But I don’t wanna take the lead, I know this ain’t what I need / So . . . . I grab my Word and start to read / About this universal selfishness I continue to feed / I’m coming clean because I need to be rescued / From self-sufficiency and trying to be the best dude / Battlin’ myself, caught in a great snare / And the sad part is I don’t know how I got there / No accountability so I’m hypocritically rude / Guilty of vanity & a judgmental attitude / Now I’m thinking out loud “Please Lord, come get me!” / Something ain’t right, and I don’t know what’s wrong with me?”
Hook: I’m becoming the very thing that I hate / A chameleon hiding in the shadows laying in wait / And if this sin left a visible stain on me / Maybe I’d deal with it quickly like shame on me
Shame talking: “Ha, Ha . . .You know . . . I really don’t think you did me justice with that introduction. So allow me to introduce myself . . . ”
V2 – People seem to think I’m only found in men / But I’m also found in women that are bound to sin / And if you take a close look and check your spiritual health / I’m the real reason why you only think of yourself / I’m a walking contradiction, sometimes when you see me / You say you don’t like me, but deep down, you want to be me / I’m stubborn in my nature, internally rooted / Fueling your ambition’s how I execute it / I battle for supremacy until I overcome you / Then make you feel guilty when that condemnation comes through / Ever wonder why you’re never satisfied? / I cause you to forget the true reason Christ died / I know exposing the real you is something that scares you / So I’m growing with humility like the wheat and the tares do / I gotchu where I want you, whatcha know about it homie? / So quit trying to act like you don’t know me!
Hook
X talking: “I don’t know why, but I’m really struggling with acknowledging my dependence on God. It’s almost as if I’ve become completely unaware of my own sinfulness . . . ”
V3 – (Once again) I plead to be freed from the lust and the greed / That arrives when I strive to achieve and succeed / But the deed that was done was indeed just a seed / Now I’m pressed and distressed ‘cause this seed’s growing weeds / And this breed of the weed’s telling me, “Take the lead!” / But I don’t wanna take the lead, I know this ain’t what I need / So . . . . I grab my Word and start to read / About this universal selfishness I continue to feed / I’m coming clean because my spiritual growth is being stunted / And the power of God in my life, I really want it! / Instead of meek and lowly, more like weak & unholy / You could call me a small leak ‘cause see I’m leaking slowly / And though I want to revere Him / My fruit bears witness to the fact that I ignore when I hear Him / And even though I know the consequence is rather stern / Man, my heart’s about as right as a left hand turn
Hook:
Shame talking: “You must not really know who I am. Most of the sins you commit are my offspring. Look, I’m trying to help you out so listen closely . . . ”
V4 – I’m the sin that you could call a terrific sin / ‘Cause yes I’m a sin, but not a specific sin / I masquerade as the spring board for so many others / Like when you covet what belongs to your sisters or your brothers / Or when you know you need help and refuse to ask / I tell you “Keep it Concealed” like a face behind a mask / When you purposely avoid people that are different from you / It’s ‘cause you see yourself from an unrealistic point of view / I’m the catalyst behind that secret sin in your life / And I’m the reason you’ve got beef with your husband or wife / And if you aren’t married, oh yes you know me! / I’m the one that had you thinking “Hey God? You owe me!” / I’m the real reason why you’re always trying to save face / And why you’re stingy when your enemies apologize and crave grace / Your mind I pollute with vain pursuits / And if you’d read Proverbs, you’d recognize my fruit
Shame talking: “When you understand your sinfulness and at the same time understand the holiness of God & how those 2 entities can not co-exist, then and only then will you catch a clue as to how to defeat me. And even after all of that, some of you probably still have no idea who I am . . . ha, ha! Shame on You . . . ”